Oof. I wanted to throw up as I read this, I’m so sorry for the gut punch revelation. Since getting into psychedelic therapy, I’ve seen people several times have this sort of memory come back. It’s never pretty and I t takes a talented therapist to help the person stay stable. I hope you have good support in your life. It takes guts to write on medium about your experience, and more guts to eventually tell your husband. I encourage you to tell him, he’ll be supportive. Maybe show him this article? Love your courage. Keep writing ❤️